No I didnt commit suicide!

The song might sound like a suicide letter! But it wasnt. I am still alive!! ;)
Here is something I found about myself:

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Reunn Neyr And You Would Be: A Demi-God

If You Were Born in 2893

...its a total rip-off! you can get different results with the same name! :P it is totally random and has nothing to do with the name but its fun! :)

03:00

There is a song from a turkish artist called "Fikret Kizilok". The name of the song is "Gecenin Ücünde" it means roughly translated something like: "At three o'clock in the night". I think it is a great idea to devote a song to this particular hour. 3 o'clock in the night is something to experience. "Its not early, its not late" like it says in the song... I always get some melancholy at this hour of the night. Some might say its "morning" but for me as long as the sun is not around its still night! It is really a magical hour...
I "fucking googled" three o'cklock and I came up with this other song: "Three O'clock Blues". I think this name describes it all. Its all about the blues!

Three O'Clock Blues

Well now, it's three o'clock in the morning
And I can't even close my eyes.
Three o'clock in the morning
And I can't even close my eyes.
Can't find my baby
And I can't be satisfied.

I've looked all around me
And my baby, she can't be found.
I've looked all around me, people,
And my baby, she can't be found.
You know if I don't find my baby,
People, I'm going down to the golden ground.

Goodbye everybody,
I believe this is the end.
Oh, goodbye everybody,
I believe this is the end.
I want you to tell my baby,
Tell her please, please forgive me,
Forgive me for my sins.

by Riley B. King and Jules Bihari

Next stop "Stalingrad"!

Friday night me and my sister (she is visiting me for a couple of weeks here in Dresden), we went to my faviourate Club, Sputnik. It was her Birthday and we were going to celebrate it there with some friends of mine. It was also a special night in Sputnik because it was the: Baikaltrain Disco


(picture is from the baikaltrain disco in leipzig, the same DJs performing in UT Connewitz)
These are two DJs who are specialised in Balkan-Beat, Russian-Ska, Krim-Reggae and Gypsy-Sounds. So the party was great and we also dance some traditional dances with my sister to some gyps songs. The rhythms and the sounds are similar to our traditional songs. There were also some oriental sounds as well, so we were belly dancing and teaching the people around how to belly dance!!! ;)

But on the way back home, it was the first time that I encountered the so-called: Neo-Nazis. The got in the tram, woke everybody up who were sleeping by shouting out loud and disturbing the people including my sister and an old guy who looked kind of poor. Then they started talking loudly about how people were living off unemployment benefit and how foreigners were invading their beloved germany. Since we didnt respond they started to talk english but the guys english knowledge was limited with the words: "mother fucker!" ;)

I really felt pity for the guys. They looked like real loosers. They werent also typical skin head neo nazis more like lower class street heroes, who use violence to come to terms with their own self-worthlessnes and think that all the reason for their problems are the immigrants or the unemployed. I also doubt if they are employed at all! What really shocked me was when the guy said: "Next stop Buchenwald" It really made me sick and I was having a hard time trying to controll my nerves and not to shout out: "Next stop Stalingrad!" ( During World War II (Great Patriotic War), the city of Stalingrad became the center of the Battle of Stalingrad, the costliest battle in human history, as well as the pivotal turning point in the war against Germany.)

or am i?

I dont believe it but i am kind of happy right now...himmm...so thats what it was like to be happy...well i will enjoy this moment for a couple of minutes more before i fell asleep....:)