No I didnt commit suicide!

The song might sound like a suicide letter! But it wasnt. I am still alive!! ;)
Here is something I found about myself:

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Reunn Neyr And You Would Be: A Demi-God

If You Were Born in 2893

...its a total rip-off! you can get different results with the same name! :P it is totally random and has nothing to do with the name but its fun! :)

03:00

There is a song from a turkish artist called "Fikret Kizilok". The name of the song is "Gecenin Ücünde" it means roughly translated something like: "At three o'clock in the night". I think it is a great idea to devote a song to this particular hour. 3 o'clock in the night is something to experience. "Its not early, its not late" like it says in the song... I always get some melancholy at this hour of the night. Some might say its "morning" but for me as long as the sun is not around its still night! It is really a magical hour...
I "fucking googled" three o'cklock and I came up with this other song: "Three O'clock Blues". I think this name describes it all. Its all about the blues!

Three O'Clock Blues

Well now, it's three o'clock in the morning
And I can't even close my eyes.
Three o'clock in the morning
And I can't even close my eyes.
Can't find my baby
And I can't be satisfied.

I've looked all around me
And my baby, she can't be found.
I've looked all around me, people,
And my baby, she can't be found.
You know if I don't find my baby,
People, I'm going down to the golden ground.

Goodbye everybody,
I believe this is the end.
Oh, goodbye everybody,
I believe this is the end.
I want you to tell my baby,
Tell her please, please forgive me,
Forgive me for my sins.

by Riley B. King and Jules Bihari

Next stop "Stalingrad"!

Friday night me and my sister (she is visiting me for a couple of weeks here in Dresden), we went to my faviourate Club, Sputnik. It was her Birthday and we were going to celebrate it there with some friends of mine. It was also a special night in Sputnik because it was the: Baikaltrain Disco


(picture is from the baikaltrain disco in leipzig, the same DJs performing in UT Connewitz)
These are two DJs who are specialised in Balkan-Beat, Russian-Ska, Krim-Reggae and Gypsy-Sounds. So the party was great and we also dance some traditional dances with my sister to some gyps songs. The rhythms and the sounds are similar to our traditional songs. There were also some oriental sounds as well, so we were belly dancing and teaching the people around how to belly dance!!! ;)

But on the way back home, it was the first time that I encountered the so-called: Neo-Nazis. The got in the tram, woke everybody up who were sleeping by shouting out loud and disturbing the people including my sister and an old guy who looked kind of poor. Then they started talking loudly about how people were living off unemployment benefit and how foreigners were invading their beloved germany. Since we didnt respond they started to talk english but the guys english knowledge was limited with the words: "mother fucker!" ;)

I really felt pity for the guys. They looked like real loosers. They werent also typical skin head neo nazis more like lower class street heroes, who use violence to come to terms with their own self-worthlessnes and think that all the reason for their problems are the immigrants or the unemployed. I also doubt if they are employed at all! What really shocked me was when the guy said: "Next stop Buchenwald" It really made me sick and I was having a hard time trying to controll my nerves and not to shout out: "Next stop Stalingrad!" ( During World War II (Great Patriotic War), the city of Stalingrad became the center of the Battle of Stalingrad, the costliest battle in human history, as well as the pivotal turning point in the war against Germany.)

or am i?

I dont believe it but i am kind of happy right now...himmm...so thats what it was like to be happy...well i will enjoy this moment for a couple of minutes more before i fell asleep....:)

Am I?

I read an interesting and critical article in a local journal(Sojus). The article was criticesing the way of modern life. A sentence there drew my attention and I really liked it: "I buy therefore I am."(1) This sentence was derived from the the famous words of the french philosopher and mathematician Descartes: "Cogito ergo sum" meaning "I think therefore I am". With these words he put forward that "the act of doubting that we exist proves we exist; there must be something that thinks about the problem of proving existence."(2)

In controversy the article in Sojus stated that in our world today people were defined by the things they own. Also we were defining ourselves with things we own. You think you are cooler when you have a cool car, a couple of credit cards makes you look richer, the "new developed" deodorant spray with its "energizing and oxidizing" effects will make you more attractive for the opposite sex. What you buy is who you are. These ideas reminded me of a quote from one of my favourite films, The Fight Club: "Things you own end up owning you."

As I was washing up my dishes some other ideas came up, which we humans can see as the basis of our mere existence:

"I think therefore I am" - Descarte
"I buy therefore I am" - Sojus
"I eat therefore I am"
"I create therefore I am"
"I feel therefore I am"
"I choose therefore I am" - Matrix(?)
"I do therefore I am"
"I am therefore I am"...

(1) Sojus 2006
(2) www.newscientist.com Michael Cross: The truth is out there

I also want to add a poem. Its a poem which I read after I saw the film "Wings of Desire" from Wim Wenders. The film is about an angel who becomes mortal after falling in love with a beautiful trapeze artist. I saw the film in german and the film uses a complex language so I couldnt understand everything, I have to see it once more in english or maybe turkish so that I can understand it better. My favourite scene is when the movie being shot in black and white becomes colourfull after the angel joins the real world.

Song of Childhood
By Peter Handke

When the child was a child,
..it walked with its arms swinging.

It wanted the stream to be a river,
..the river a torrent,
..and this puddle to be a sea.

When the child was a child,
..it didn't know it was a child.

Everything was full of life,
..and all life was one.

When the child was a child,
..it had no opinions about anything.
It had no habits.
It sat cross-legged,
..took off running,
..had a cowlick in its hair,
..and didn't make a face when photographed.

When the child was a child,
..it was the time of these questions:
Why am I me, and why not you?
Why am I here, and why not there?
When did time begin and where does space end?

Isn't life under the sun just a dream?

Isn't what I see, hear and smell only the
..illusion of a world before the world?

Does evil actually exist?
And are there people who are really evil?

How can it be that I, who am I,
..did not exist before I came to be?
And that someday the one who I am
..will no longer be the one who I am?

When the child was a child,
..apples and bread were enough for it,
..and it is still that way.

When the child was a child,
..berries fell into its hands as only berries do,
..and they still do.

Fresh walnuts made its tongue raw,
..and they still do now.

On every mountain top,
..it had a longing for a yet higher mountain,
..and in every city it had a longing for a yet
..bigger city.
And it is still that way.

It reached for cherries in the treetop
..with the elation it still feels today.

It was shy with all strangers,
..and it still is.

It awaited the first snow,
..and it is still this way.

When the child was a child,
..it threw a stick into a tree like a lance.
And it still quivers there today.

Party: a statistical and explanatory review

Party ('pär-tE ) : a social gathering; also : the entertainment provided for it. Etymology: Sense of "gathering for social pleasure" is first found 1716, from general sense of persons gathered together (originally for some specific purpose, e.g. dinner party, hunting party).

Date: 17.11.2006
Reason: My 21st Birthday
Motive: Sunglasses (as in: cyprus is a sunny island therefore sunglasses at cpyriot party!)
Location: My Bedroom, our kitchen and the corridor (in Wu3)
Starting time: 21:00
First guests to arrive: 21:03
Estimate of the total number of Guests: 150
At 02:00 : 88 Guests in the House
Guests from 21 different countries including: Cyprus, Germany, Brasil, Spain, Switzerland, Poland, France, Indonesia, Columbia, Syria, Latvia etc.
10 special guests from Leipzig and 2 from Karlsruhe
2 live bands (1 funk/rock/groove band + 1 rock/cover band) for 2 hours -thanx to Karla!
DJ art hustle for 2 hours - thanx to Jakob
Last guests to leave: 04:30
Number of empty beer bottles collected: around 200
Number of empty wine and other Alcohol bottles collected: around 50
Time required to clean up: 6 hours
Nothing broken, nobody hurt, everybody(i hope) was satisfied and nobody puked in my pots! ;)
What I think of the Party?: I love this City...

Bathroom: where cool thoughts occur!

What is "love" if you dont get to make it?

(Love isnt just about making love, but if you dont make love than what do you do? himm...) ;)

A Rather Pessimistic View

I read an article that in 50 years there won't be any fish to fish!? Wow! Quo Vadis Mundus? How fast are we consuming? But what amazes me is that we, and by we I mean our generation, are going to live these changes. Global warming, depletion of resources and other crisis. As I read that article I also thought about my trip in Cyprus to one of my favourite places on the island. Its a small restaurant on the seaside and they have very fresh fish which some of it, the keepers of the restaurant fish themselves.


I dont like to eat fish much, but on the seaside with the atmosphere it tastes much better and you can actually see what you are eating, because you get to choose the fish you are going to eat in the fridge. Apart from the tasty fresh fish and the beautifull seaside atmoshphere another thing I like about that place is its remote location. There arent so many people there, because it is quite far from the capital and from the other main cities. You have to drive about one and a half hours at least. This drive could have been relaxing and fun. But due to the boom in construction in Cyprus, almost all the way there are holiday bungalows or cheaply constructed appartments. They are built on terrains on which there used to be olive and carob trees! Now its an ugly view of white concrete buildings. Makes me sick to think of it!!

But anyway once you get there, you get to enjoy the wonderful view and the beautiful yet unspoiled sea of the Karpaz region. Here is a view to enjoy ;)

He would be proud of us!

As the monumental Bust of Karl Marx (the biggest bust in the world!) was watching us, "we winded on down the road" under the red-black flag of the Antifa (Anti-Fascist organisation). This picture is from my visit to Chemnitz , where we joined this demonstration with a friend
against a couple of shops who are supporting the neo-nazi scenes and selling stuff realted with fascism and neo-nazism(posters, music, buttons etc.).

Although we both went to bed at 5 am on saturday because we were at some party, we stayed loyal to our promise and we took off around half past nine in the morning with the train, hoping to catch some more sleep on the way! ;) There were already some "comrades" in the train who were also heading for the Demo.

My first impression of Chemnitz was that this was an empty city! There werent so many people around and when there were, they were usually old women with their dogs(but these looked more like rats).
No wonder why Chemnitz has the lowest birth rate in the world! There arent people there to make any children anyway. The second thing that shocked me was a group of neo-nazi skinheads just running past us. They were probably running away from the large group who got out of the train.


After visiting the house of my friend, the place i was going to stay at night, we hit the road. For around 6 hours we walked with a large group of students, punks, teachers etc. stopping regulary either in front of the shops or because some fascists were trying to attack us and our angry black block was ready to attack them back. So the police had to do the work and we had to wait and make sure that there was no danger around!

But to my suprise there was no harm done to anything or anyone, there werent any burning garbage and no flying beer bottles like in leipzig. When we stopped at the city centre and the concerts began, we decided to go back home since we were tired. The night wasnt long and exciting: just some movies and documentaries... The favourite club of my friend "Atomino" was closed anyway, so supposedly there wasnt so much out there to miss anyway!

18, 19, 20, 21...

Duman - Aman Aman

nereye gider başını alıp, sorarsın
kim bilir, uyumadan nasıl susarsın
bilmeden boşuna atıp tutarsın
su gibi akıp geçer zaman

gezdin tozdun aman aman aman
sazdın sözdün aman aman aman
giderek üzdün bizi zaman
giderek üzdün bizi zaman

yazdın çizdin aman aman aman
incecik izdin aman aman aman
sıraya dizdin bizi zaman
sıraya dizdin bizi zaman

hep kaçıp, yeni bir adım atar
kendibine kadar, çileye batıp çıkarken
içine atıp atıp, yoluna basıp giderken
su gibi akıp geçer zaman

gezdin tozdun aman aman aman
sazdın sözdün aman aman aman
giderek üzdün bizi zaman
giderek üzdün bizi zaman

yazdın çizdin aman aman aman
incecik izdin aman aman aman
sıraya dizdin bizi zaman
sıraya dizdin bizi zaman

ok last post about destiny, conincidence etc...

"huhu, natürlich komme ich gerne (sehr schön, dass es am 17.11. ist und nicht dieses wochenende) und ich werde auch so ein, zwei, drei oda vier flaschen mitbringen. und vielleicht springt auch für dich was bei raus :) eine frage. hast du freunde aus leipzig, die du zu deiner party eingeladen hast? meine beste freundin kennt in leipzig eine tara aus zypern, die zu einer party in dresden bei einem zyprioten eingeladen ist... und so viele gibts da ja wohl nicht, oder? das wäre ja ein lustiger zufall.in diesem sinne, ciao :)"

scary....

translation: "huhu, naturally i will come (very nice, that the party is on the 17.11 and not this weekend) and i will aslo bring one, two, three or four bottles with me. an maybe there will be something for you as well! :) a question: do you have friends in leipzig, whom you invited to your party? my best friend knows a tara from cyprus, who is coming to a party in dresden which is organised by a cypriot....and there arent so many are there? this would be a funny coincidence. ciao :)"

the world is a village...

amor fati

Today I was reading this text and i read these words in latin: "amor fati". It means love your destiny. Just wanted to write it down somewhere ;)

Veni Vidi Let it Be...

I just heard the Beatles masterpiece "Let It Be" covered from Nick Cave...It touched me...yes it may sound "gay" but it did. I was chatting with a friend yesterday and then we discovered some connections from the past. This guy had met his girlfriend in a camp in USA because my sister had given her place to that girl. By not going to this Camp my sister wanted to bring more time with me as I was leaving Cyprus to study in Germany. This guy didnt know me at that time and he didnt know my sister but yesterday he thanked me and told me to thank my sister as well. Because of us he had a nice time with a nice girl! :)

At that moment I thought about the scene in Lost where Sawyer tells Jack about the words of his father when they talked in a bar in Australia. Its kind of religious thinking but I cant help thinking about how many things are connected in life...so many coincidences.

During the time I was staying in Leipzig, I was living with a friend and we used to watch a hell of a lot of films. Films have a director and a screenplay. When strange coincidences took place we used to think we were in a film and we were just actors in the hands of the "regisseur".

What has all of this to do with "letting it be"? Well like the song says "if you find yourself in times of trouble" dont let it destroy your life! Sometimes just letting it go, just letting it be as it should be is also a solution. The main actor in the film I saw a couple of days ago said: "..and when you do just nothing thats when the women come" :P You get the idea...

Freiburg - Student City without Transportation

Last visit I payed a visit to my sister (Mine) who is now da jura studying in Freiburg but de facto in France, Poland, Estonia, Switzerland etc. She is taking part in a programm of the IES - Institute for the International Education of Students. This is a programm for students studying in the USA (my sister is a student at grinnell college in USA) who want to study abroad. The programm for my sister consists of visiting european countries and the important EU structures there and learning german and taking some classes in economy in Freiburg.


Well anyway last week she was in Freiburg and so I went to visit her and see the city. Freiburg is a nice german city with "happy" and friendly people. Here in dresden the people are not so happy. :/

There was even a woman who asked us if would like our picture taken in front of the Schwabenthor...so we said yes and this picture was the result. :)



In the old city, every building is admirably restored or at least they seem so. There is a small canal flowing through the city, if you fall into this small canal then according to the legend you will marry a Freiburger, but I didnt fall into it! :)

If you walk to the Schwabentor and go past the bridge near it, there are stairs going up to a small restaurant with a well situated beer garden. It is a remarkable experience to watch the sun set in the horizon, its rays falling on to the beautiful roofs of the buildings. You can also enjoy the view whilst you are sipping from your cold beer, which was what we did.

About the nights in Freiburg: the city is full with students, the clubs and pubs are packed! But the city doesnt have a proper transportation system for the drunk students who are looking for their beds late at night or early in the morning! Only on weekends there are night-buses, but you have to pay for them!?! If you have a friend to drive you or if the weather is good and you have a bike than there isnt a big problem. But the student accomodations in Vauban, which is a really cool place with students and hippies around, are about half an hour on foot from the city center so on winter its better to sit at home and watch a DVD with friends!

I couldnt go to each and every club/pub/cafe but my favourite was the little Reggea Bar. Also Schlappen (Studi-Kneipe) was great - reasonable prices and good food. Other places that should be visited are: Europapark (an amusement park) and the Schwarzwald (the Black Forest). Because of the weather I couldnt visit the Europapark. We didnt have guides so we didnt jump into the Black Forest but we went hiking at the borders of the Forest. We climbed a tower and we were confronted with a beautiful view...

Veni Vidi?

"Veni Vidi"? in italian: "I went, I saw.." These words come from the famous words of the Dictator of the Roman Empire: Gaius Julius Caesar: "Veni, Vidi, Vici" meaning "I went, I saw, I conquered" Since I have no army or no empire and no will to conquer anything, when I go to some place i like to see it and to "live" that place, the atmosphere, the people, more like "Carpe that place" (carpe= seize, live in latin)...But I dont speak Italian so i couldnt change the word "Vici" with "i live" in italian. So you will ask now, why make the title in italian, when you dont speak any Italian? The answer is simple: this blog will be multi-lingual. I am writing the first blog in english since english is accepted as the "world language" by many and there isnt an alternative to this language, that i can use so that many of my friends in differnt parts of europe will understand. But there will be posts in german, english and turkish. Maybe in other languages in the future as well, if I get to learn any other languages!


About me; I am a student in Dresden, Germany. I am studying Sociology. I am from Cyprus....himm this introduction sounds boring and reminds me of those essays that i used to write in the high school in english exams: "Please write an Essay in 200 Words about yourself."...:/ Well I think I will skip the introduction and I will give more information about myself in other posts....